Confessions of a Teenage Compulsive Liar

Ok then...I'm sure everyone on Earth has told at least 5 lies in their lifetime and for most people, more. So I'm not sure why, but I've become a super-uber-compulsive liar...I lie about things that don't even make a big deal... *Confession: I've only seen New Moon once* So I've been trying to lie a lot less...Basically I trying to tell at least one less lie a day...And lemme tell you: IT IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HARD!!! Its hard to catch myself ahead of time because sometimes i just blurt shit out...
*Confession: I wish my friends would stop talking about "Justin", because he is a figment of my imagination".* *Confession: I am so sick, I got someones pic off the Internet to show my friends what he "looked like".* *Confession: My mother bought that bracelet (at a dollar store!) I used to show how, after he "moved away", he still thought of me enough to send a token of his love.* Some times I just tell lies to make me seem less pathetic...and in my friends' eyes it works...but i still feel like a loser haha...
I live a HUGE lie at school....And I think I'll keep it til i die lol...I've tried to tell my friends about the lies I tell but its amazing that they can choose when they really wanna listen to me and when they don't...I've lied to everyone I know and IDK about you, but i feel like I'm lying even when my smile isn't genuine...you don't know how many times I have to pretend to smile everyday...It's the environment I'm exposed to, I swear...
I even lie to myself...for example IDK I'm not sure if I had my 1st kiss yet because i didn't really "like" the boy i may have kissed back in 5th grade....UGH....there's so much i have to sort through now in my life that its hard to keep up with it all.....